belay on?
on belay.
climbing.
climb on!

woohoo..jus finished my sabbaticals. it was great. i think it was fun. haha. altho i din even conquer a single wall. haha. oops. too high la. scaryy...

went for rock climibing sabbats ytd and tdy. haha. it wasn't as bad i thought it would. tiring. but fun. really train your arms and fingers. i ALMOST finished one wall. but i couldnt feel the rock so i looked down and whoa! i almost fainted in fear. so high. so i jus gave up. couldnt take it. siewfun xinyi and cheeyang were like screaming and screaming at me to not come down. but i couldnt la. bleahx. i jus couldnt. the fear. i jus cant ignore it. sighs.

then we tried harder ones. those that slants outwards. wah. tiring man. haha. at least i beat ng cheeyang lor. ha! ok i'm so mean. thsy say my physical state can bring me to the top. but it's the mental barrier that i cant overcome. sigh. it would take a lifetime for me to ever not be afraid of heights lor.

but it was really fun la. new experience. haha but tdy i refused to try out the absailing. I REFUSE TO! see the ladder i want to faint alr. oh man. so high.

anyway i'm so proud of myself:) haha.. i passed the rock climbing level one test. -claps- -jaw drops- "shermin? rock climbing? wad a joke" haha. well i did get it. ha!

hm nothing much abt sabbats le la. well i met ray agn ytd. but this time was more of on purpose. haha. really great to talk to you ray!! yupp:))

well today's rock climbing has lightened up my emotions alot. yea. feeling better le. guess i jus have to live day by day and be myself. anyway thanks junwen, thanks li bin. ya. thanks for listening:) i guess my life in HC is permenant. so i jus have to open my heart and accept and adapt. i jus hope you all know how i feel. ha..hopefully my nick can be changed.

looking forward to holidays..quite packed la but i really nid to make time to mug. oh man. i really really really really really really really really really really don want to fail anymore. so ya. buck up shermin!!

i shall end here then. take care everyone.

perhaps solitude isnt bad. but i cant. i cant live alone.